The Highs are High
It is hard to believe that I am coming up on six years of living a creative life in this crazy city.
I have been given some of the most amazing opportunities, been shaped into the woman I am supposed to be, and yet have been shown some of the hardest years of my life going after my career as an Actress.
Let's just say the highs have been high and the lows have been low.
When you are living the high life as a performer (which usually just looks like paying your bills by doing what you love) it's easy to stay faithful and trust what the Universe has in store for you! But when you are coming up on a year of not booking a performing contract (like my current situation) you start to question the sacrifices you've made in order to maintain this lifestyle, and contemplate your purpose as an artist.
It has been a hard year auditioning full time and learning the patience and resilience it takes to keep going when all I feel is myself maturing yet feeling stuck.
This post is here to provide you my 5 tips that have helped me keep going through the lows in order maintain balance and trust in my career as an artist. <3
1. Try something that interests you!
There's an abnormal amount of downtime we fall into after a contract ends and we have been used to performing eight shows a week, or being on set for 10-12 hours a day. Suddenly you find yourself back to auditioning full time and waiting for the next big thing! This is a great time to try something that interests you outside of your hustle.
For example: I have a huge passion for health and fitness and took 9 months of my life last year to work as a group fitness instructor. It was a great side job, taught me a lot about myself as a performer, allowed me to connect deeper to my body and ultimately reminded me that my true passion is my career as an artist.
I am a big believer in the saying "you are closer to knowing what you want when you find out what you don't want".
You never know what you can learn from saying YES to something you never thought you would get the opportunity to try.
2. Visit your family/friends!
When the lows are low as an artist it usually means we have been spending too much time in our survival jobs and haven't been fulfilled by doing what we love. But when we are doing what we LOVE it requires 100% of our time and attention and we miss weddings, reunions, birthday parties, and the even the every so often happy hours.
I have found that a great way to fill my "down" time while I'm back in auditions, is turning that downtime into free time for family and friends I couldn't see when I was #bookedandblessed.
This will remind you that there are more lights in your life than just the *bright lights* you have been craving.
3. Make your own work!
My roommate has a great camera and self tape studio set-up in our apartment. This has inspired us to write and perform in our own material, record some of our favorite audition cuts, or hold a photo shoot just for fun!
Without fail, this has been an amazing way for me to remember that my my creativity can still be on my own terms even when I feel like all I'm doing is waiting for another "yes."
The lesson: don't wait for someone to give you permission to do what you love.
4. Develop a new habit!
One of the first things I took up during my newfound free time was giving myself the space to learn how to cook and maintain a more plant based diet. This contributed to not only my knowledge in the kitchen, but taught me more about nourishing and listening to my body.
My body instantly felt cleaner, my gut is happier, and now I know how to chop an onion!
It's the little things...
5. Be kind to yourself.
At the end of the day, we all know that a show is not the end all-be all of life because a show always ends, and no material gain will fulfill us with the necessary self love it requires to live a full life.
Take this time to do something nice for yourself, to say kinder things to yourself, and work on the process of going inward to find that peace and joy that already exists within.
For me, taking the time means to meditate, journal, or do yoga. These are all rituals I keep in order to practice gratitude and balance the anxiety my heart and mind go through when I'm uncertain of the outcome.
Your light was there all along.
Finding the balance in our lives as artists looks different for everyone, but I hope these tips help you tune in to yourself when you're desire for the outcome starts to feel overbearing.
That way when the right opportunity finds you, it finds you full and whole all on your own. <3